Welcome to my blog page
They said "write it all down, you have to get it out"
Why start blogging? Something has changed. Actually ... many things have changed recently. They say change is good, that it helps us grow, adapt, pull through and deal with challenges. No change and no growth usually leads to boredom, depression, a lack of inspiration to accomplish any of our goals. If there's one thing the experts agree on, it's that our appreciation for anything in life will come from experiencing the good and the bad, the easy and the difficult, the abundance and the scarcity. We wouldn't know what light is without darkness.
Personally, with each year, I realize time is ticking away. Every day, week, month, year, just seems to be passing by quicker! Can someone stop this thing? So apparently not. No one can. At some point I needed to ask myself, what am I doing? what do I want? am I happy? fulfilled? I really hate the term "midlife crisis" but what I think happens is you wake up one morning asking yourself these questions, and the answers are not always so clear.
Hence, a change!
Sometimes we don't realize we need a change, most times even if we do realize it - it's too frightening And sometimes, our life changes wether we want it or not. We may lose someone dear to us, our job changes, our circle of friends changes, the kids get older, we move to a new town, priorities change, opinions may change, our bodies and physicality change, world events and new technology demands us to change, or we may win the lottery (that rarely happens but we can keep dreaming). Even our dreams change, or do they? I call it "the blueprint of our life". The blueprint is our belief of what a meaningful life should look like. It's what we envisioned from a young age we would become and details where and how we should live, who would be in our life, our choice of a partner and type of relationship, if we want kids and what they would be like, it's our career choices and desired financial status, it's our personal view and definition of what we consider successful, meaningful and fulfilling. It's what our life would be like if we could design it to be what we want it to be. However, very often, when we stop and look around, it may not be exactly what we planned.
For me, the major change came after Oct. 7th. This will not be a political rant...it's simply the awareness that made me realize why now. The events of that day delivered a huge new bag, filled with change. First and foremost, it included the immediate fear of safety, a fear of no control, uncertainty of if and how I could protect my family. Then came the other changes that included future plans, my job or better yet, being out of a job! Then followed a financial change, the daily routine I was used to and what I was so programmed to do. One day seemed to change so much!!! I didn't ask for this but there it was - inevitable!
Life still went on, the birthday still came, new years still happened, the holidays continued, the days came and went regardless - but now I had to adapt, cope, deal and figure some things out on how to navigate a new path. I stopped (cause I had to) and just concentrated on breathing. With each day I asked myself all those questions. I dug in deep to try and interpret wtf was going on with me. What I came up with is this: It's not a fucking midlife crisis. It's just a wake up call. It's a reminder of how little control we have on most things and yet - being the control freak that I am - it's what needs to change in me, so I can feel like I'm using my potential and living each day the way I always wanted to.
I launched the site an blog to explore and share the things I've been eager to create more of.. and as it turns out, it's a lot. I'm not an expert on relationships, being a parent, a nutritionist, a DJ, a stylist or a professional writer. But I love people, I believe in connections and communication, and it seems like the right time to follow this new path. What is important for me is to be honest, stay authentic, genuine and stay true to myself others. Never been attracted to bullshit.
If you've read this post till the end, I'm honored you took the time and I do hope you get to experience some of my shares.
Ciao,
Judy
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